haiix. jus finish tolleratin my mom n jason. URGH.. haiix nvm.

after bloggin n postin tat post ytd. i kept thinkin n thinkin til around 1 in the mornin..not tat i couldnt sleep but ther's reli sth buggin me.. i tot back of those days tat i so called forgot. it reli hurt me, but well.. now im afraid of gettin to noe other ppl. lik joel. nowadays, joel has bcome my so called soulmate. its lik he noes everything, so wadeva he oso can say. it seems lik he is superman or sth. but well, i dun reli wana get too close eva since my break up. i bcame stronger abt myself n those around. but not to the guys around. cos im scared if they noe me too well, everything wil go heywire.. i noe wad im bad at. insecurity, no trust, strong opinionted. n i oso noe wad wil bcome of me wen i hav a bf in the future. i wil be lik last time n it sucks. so if a guy can tolerate me bein me, den well, i wil say he's a v impressive guy. but for now, everytime i think of a guy tat i may lik, i wil kick him outs my mind for at least two three days. sry joel, if i nid to be quite far away from ya.

kays, lets not tok abt tis things.. ytd i was walkin wif my mom. tokin n chatti mabt personal stuff as usual. she said sth tat reli made me change. i asked her wad she would she describe love. she said SELFLESS.. den she carried on.. love towards each other, as frens or family. its stil the same. to be selfless is sth tat most cant do. ther r many ppl hu get divorces, bcos they cant giv way to one another. too selfish, thinkin abt themselves oni.. n many mor. i cant reli rmb it. well, den she said sth abt wen ppl get too close, friction ocurrs.

well, denwe were tokin abt ppl wantin attention. den my mom said everyone wana hav attention from others, but its the degree of it. well, to me, some ppl jus cant get enough of attention. n i think tat ppl hu r good in studies, nvr get mor attention den those hu hav talents. well, my mom said though tats true, but den wen it comes to work, oni the ppl hu can hav IQ n EQ wil succeed. hmm, well, okay larhs. agree wif her lorhs.

lastly, i jus wana say this. im reli happy i broke wif wei bin. though after our break he's stil hurtin me. he made me realise sth, tat i can improve in my next relationship n he;s character oni came to light to me after i got near him. tats one good thing though the cons r lots mor. hahas, my aunt told me tat my cousin last time had lots of gfs but all not stable, now he got a gf for 4 yrs, impressive yea. hahas:DD

gona change for the better n forget u once again

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