hey all, hav lots to say, but dun feel lik sayin

haiix, too bad, no one to tok to mahs.. as in, no one tat wil listen to me n i feel comfortable in..
few days ago, gh tel me to be frens wif wei bin, was a little reluctant, hard larhs.. kinda hav the hatred thing. well, the hatred thing came back.. i tried lettin go of some stuff, but i cant totali let go.. tats the biggest prob.

wei bin kip smsin me today, didnt reli feel lik smsin back.. anger anger..
nid to go for anger management n physicology.. clear up all my past, or i wil stay single foreva.. even if tat guy can control my anger, i cant giv myself wholeheartedly to him.. today tok to mom abt french, den she says tat frenchmen r romantic, perhaps melt my heart mor den anything, den fine les, but i dun think okay larhs..

haiis, now biggest prob is CHRISTMAS PRESENTS!!! hell, i planned to buy things, lots n lots for my frens.. but now, i dun think i wana buy any.. well, firstly, my sis is lik spendin n spendin, hey, im not born wif a silver spoon kays.. den some mor i go out so much.. i reli wana settle down n study, but, seems lik i cant focus at all.. calls from many ppl, smses.. i dun even wana go on9 anymor.. n the worst part is, my mom wana giv me mor money weneva i finish goin out, so in order to not use up my mom or dad's money, i wana return the money back to my parents, so sry everyone.. no presents.

tis has been one of my fav n worst christmases spent.. firstly, ppl i dun wana tok to kips askin me out, while ppl i hope to even get an sms from is lik all quiet. i dun expect much from others, dun even care if they wana be frens wif me anot.. m i becomin mor unfrenly? or izt tat i jus hav too much in mind.. afraid i get headache again, esp wen i hav tis damn stomach cramp..

sighs sighs sighs, i wish i can start new life in RV rite now, meet new ppl tat i can confide in.. cant wait to get closer to gracia..:DD

my heart feels heavy,
my sighs r low..
for one day my blood,
wil stop to flow.
to travel across the ocean,
to travel across the sea,
in search of the rite man for me..
perhaps ther's no rite man,
no one tat wil wana suffer wif me,
for me bein me
n for me havin the experience,
love doesnt exist in me..

All about miie here
Name : RoxY RaveS(BWN)
Hottmail: bwn_0964@hotmail.com :D
Been on a R0LL since 11/01/1996
CURRENT RVian, still a SouthVian,
GONA BE senior CAMP LDR
Luvs cheers!
Sv- 1B, 2E, 3.8, 4.1, 5.1, 6.12
Rv- 1G
*STIL PENDIN COS NO NICKNAME FOR THE YR YET..*

; H3sterster :DD j1e
; Tt4ny4 =p j1e
; M31 JuN (: me11
; Y1ng Su4n :) meii
; Zh3ng J13 d1d1 ;p

; WHITE RICE
; walkin
; thinkin too much
; cleanliness & tidiness:D

; WET FLOORS
; vegeeeee
; ppl takin my stuff without permission
; heights
; dirt (sometimes)
; D1srespectfuL ppL(towards trs esp)

; get my cam lens repaired
; camp tees
; get CONTACTS SOON!
; FOr next p5 camp next yr..
; GO TO FRANCE!!!
; GO TO JAPAN!!!wif ahemahem
; get as many CDs as possible
; not to take things for granted anymor

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