long time no post seh.. equals to LONGLONG POST. time to get eye sore again :DD

on fri, my mom took half day leave to bring me for the back checkup. heng arh.. after havin the x ray, the doc said tat my back got no change. no sign of worsenin nor improvement. GREAT. hehes, den ltr, wen to victoria concert hall ther to see see.. hahas, walk walk walk.. i jus simply love walkin n standing seh..

it was the WORLD choir festival or sth tat is held every 5 yrs. some of the china choirs oso go ther to watch. waas. the ACJC is damn good seh.. the ppl so open. they not oni good in singin. the arrangement of the choir n the appearance was reli great. it was the most impressive. all the members were v expressive. hehes, but den the RJC not so good. all bo pian one. study study study. had lots of diff things goin. i liked the choir esemble. it was made up of around 8 ppl, 3 gals n 5 guys. of all ages, well, at least older den teens larhs. it was impressive. the coordination n stuff. got diff races n ppl from other countries too. was reli nice to hear them sing. den ltr got the SYA gp. the conductor was a little old, but den the crazy guys behind me tat were sayin tat all the gals in the other choirs all ugly one say tat the conductor v cute n pretty. wad???!! guys oways look at appearance before the whole package hahas..

den ltr my sis larhs. she n her frens nid my dad n mom to fetch them, den wan eat before goin. eat until around for 2hrs lehs.. some more nid to find place to eat.. den i hav to tag along lorhs. didnt eat or drink at all. tired larhs.. they ate at chinatown instead.. well, after around 1 hr or so, i wen outside to wait n jus look around. well, i didnt dare to go far. hey it was late in the nite around midnight lehs. so i stood some wher near a newspaper uncle. in front was a newly built temple. it was huge alrite. ts whole week was reli tiring for me, got lots in mind, so i jus stood ther n stared at it.. i felt so peaceful, so calm jus lookin at it.. den ltr i started to ask myself some questions n answerin them of cos. but den stil a little frustrated at some things..

tis were some tots tat came to my mind..
i felt tat i was reli useless.. i couldnt do anything. i envied my sis a lot, n den felt tat she would oways be better den me. although i play mor sports n i can study better, but den it felt lik i was unimportant in any of them. i felt tat my sis could interact wif mor ppl, she was oways the star. everyone in the rite stead of mind would rather my sis den me.. i felt so outcast. felt tat hu eva tats wif me, as long as they meet my sis, they would soon grow towards her den to me. den ltr, i felt tat it would be better if i bcame a nun, well, i dun wont be able to find a guy tat would lik me for me n not be so close to my sis but to me.. its jus gona be reli hard to find someone lik tat. it was reli hard to accept tat fact, but i guess i nid to accept it no matter how bad it wil be for me. though i cried n wasnt feelin good at all, lik i couldnt breathe, but well, i jus nid to forget abt the whole thing n jus make my sis be the better one n me oways far behind..

my poor mom n dad had to fetch the frens home. some even lived in the east lehs. troublesome!!

den on sat, im reli sry to joel. i kinda gave him the silent treatment, the cold shoulder, well, u dun nid to noe y i did. jus tat he kinda affects how i felt on fri. but its cool now. nadya had a tumy ache. wen i told joel tat, i think he didnt reli believe tat, so i tried to be serious. hopefully he took it seriously. i wonder how she is now..

had to leave warren early tat day. hell.. nid to see my sis perform. i didnt reli wan to. cos my head was lik damn so called contracted.but stil, forced to go..haiix.. wad to do.. tat day, i didnt reli enjoy. after the concert, my sis made my whole family stay back jus to help her take her shoes n her file so tat she can go shoppin wif her frens mor conviently. wa seh, she some mor go play n joke around wif some of her frens den take her time to find us. hell, my bro n i were damn angry. well, tats not reli tat bad, but den i reli hate it wen she wen around tellin her frens, some of which were from other schs n wen eva she makes a new fren, she would say.. hi my name is agnes n my bday is on the 14 dec.. hell, den everyone has to giv her presents. she even requested for my parents to giv her presents too lehs.. MAD MAD!!! im boilin lik hell.. i nvr knew my sis would go to tis limit man.. after sec sch, she totali changed, im afraid i would bcome lik her.. if i would, i would slap myself everyday until my face turns red.. i mean, come on, be happy tat she has those frenships wif her frens, isnt tat enough??? well, last time i took things for granted, so i noe how it feels, but not to tis extent. hopefulli, my sis wouls tone down wif her gally ness..

WOW, pourin my feelins out is reli good. feels damn good. not so stuffy inside.. chels wen to malaysia. hahas, i oso goin today.. hehes, hopefully can meet.. forgot to mention..everytime chels goes away, or i n her nvr kip in touch for a while, sth bad oways happens to me, lik tat time she wen to vietnam, den things happen to me n wei bin. as well as the time she wen to beijing. well, i think chels oways gets the good stuff wen she goes away.. if tats true, dne i dun mind spend mor alone time, me sufferin n her, gettin the good life..

today, my mom brought me to go baibai.. at her last time village temple. it was so cool. hahas, ther got lots of nice bungalows.. hahas, den ltr at the back got the villager. hehes. the temple was rite in front of the opera hse tat was the oni thing except the temple tat was stil in use..
hahas.. my mom told me lots of her childhood. got bridges n damps. hehes, even the time wen the teachers wen around lookin for my mom cos she refused to drink milk, while my mom hid in a corner..:DD

though i reli hope my sis would spend mor family time den fren time.. stil.. HAPPY BDAY JIIE!

All about miie here
Name : RoxY RaveS(BWN)
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Been on a R0LL since 11/01/1996
CURRENT RVian, still a SouthVian,
GONA BE senior CAMP LDR
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Sv- 1B, 2E, 3.8, 4.1, 5.1, 6.12
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; Tt4ny4 =p j1e
; M31 JuN (: me11
; Y1ng Su4n :) meii
; Zh3ng J13 d1d1 ;p

; WHITE RICE
; walkin
; thinkin too much
; cleanliness & tidiness:D

; WET FLOORS
; vegeeeee
; ppl takin my stuff without permission
; heights
; dirt (sometimes)
; D1srespectfuL ppL(towards trs esp)

; get my cam lens repaired
; camp tees
; get CONTACTS SOON!
; FOr next p5 camp next yr..
; GO TO FRANCE!!!
; GO TO JAPAN!!!wif ahemahem
; get as many CDs as possible
; not to take things for granted anymor

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